A lot has happened since my last post. I just moved into a new place off of W. Stuart St., in Fort Collins. It's a cute little townhouse; nice sized rooms. The only problem is my sister and I have so much shit! I threw out my Lazyboy recliner that I got from a garage sale awhile back. My sister threw out her double bookcase that was coming apart. We should've cleaned out what we didn't need at the old place. I gave Mikah and Kim our black leather couches from the old house. This move was a little crazy. We had my Uncle's truck and my parents van, that's about it. Our new place was just about a two minute drive from our old one, so it wasn't at all that bad. Razz and are still settling in; unpacking boxes, and sorting through our stuff. Alyssa hasn't moved in yet. Still waiting for her too. Lets see... what else... The cable guys came over today and installed everything for us. Yay... T.V. and internet!
Before the move happened, I got into a huge argument with Stephen. We almost broke up. I just told him how I was feeling and how I wish I could meet his friends and family because I feel a little left out. He turned it around and said that because of me, he hasn't seen his family for a month and his best friends in like five weeks. It was because of me. I thought it wasn't fair at all. I told him that he needs to manage his time better. I also told him that I always ask to see if I can go down to Brighton to see him, or ask him to come up. I always ask. It wasn't like I told him, "No, you can't go see your friends or family, Stephen. I won't let you." I ask to go see him and he knows it. I told him it was all about him. And it still is, I think. Oh well, he does what he wants, right? He always does. One problem with me is I think I'm too needy... I think it's because I wish he would include me in some of the things that he does. For example, go out with his friends, go with him as a date to weddings,just simple things like that. I told him that if it was my appearance, I'm able to change. He just told me to stop worrying. That was it. But I love this man, I'm fighting to make this relationship work. I really am... And it's hurting me a lot.
I switched to Night Shift at work from Day Shift. I definitely like it a lot better. I had to adjust my sleeping schedule, but I think it's working out good. :)
I can't go to school for awhile, so I'm saving up to go later. My mom can't cosign for us anymore because we apparently maxed out her credit, haha. It sucks for all of us. My brother wants to join the Navy now so they can help pay for his education, but my dad is hesitant about it because he's the only boy in the family. We'll see what happens when he graduates. I thought about the National Guard too. But I need to lose all my belly fat before I join, which is going to take me about a year to do that. Geez, I wish I had Jillian from the Biggest Loser to yell at me and make me work out. But my plan starting sometime soon, I don't know when is going to be: After my Night Shift, I go work out at the gym, come home, shower and then go to bed. My gym opens at 6am and I get off work at 6:30 anyway, so I think it'll work out perfectly. Another obstacle is to change my eating habits... more salads/greens, lean meats; just eat more healthy. No more fast food. It's going to be a challenge, but I want to achieve it. Need motivation! Need motivation!
I'm writing this blog from work during my break. I'm trying to stay awake, haha. Just almost 2.5 more hours to work... I can do this... I can do this...
