5th Love Letter to Stephen

Stephen,

Hey, Honey, I just wanted you to know that I am the luckiest woman in the world to be with you. I have never been so happy in my life than I am when I'm with you. You mean the whole world to me and I can't wait for the day when the world knows the love I have for you. I want nothing more than to be a wonderful girlfriend and to cherish every moment I have with you.

Baby, you are the love of my life. My only love. Every time we kiss, I always feel that chemistry or that connection we have together. It makes me want you even more. Every time I see you, my heart feels heavy, filled with love, and it just makes me happy.

I love you.

Love always,

Amy

Amazing Night

Last night was amazing!!! I love spending time with Stephen. He just held me close and kissed my shoulders and didn't let me go all night long. I guess after that dream, it made us love each other even more. Those love letters that I send him twice a week... It sure makes a difference. :D

I can't wait to start school tomorrow! I work day shift 6am-2pm, then I have class from 4-5:15pm.

I'm soo happy right now!

4th Love Letter to Stephen

Stephen Naaman Begay,

I love you. I love every little thing about you. I love your cute smile, your magical eyes, and the sound of your voice. I love your gentle touch, and I love the warmth I feel when I’m by your side. I can't stop thinking about you when we are apart. I need you by my side. You complete me. You mean the world to me. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the one I've always wished for. I never thought that I would ever meet someone as special as you. I love each and every moment I share with you.

Love always,

Amy

Dreams...

What does it mean when you and your boyfriend have similar dreams? The same night you're in bed together?

It makes me scared. He's scared too.

But what do they mean?

I really hate people sometimes...

Lamar: "wtf is your proble you know what there was reason we stop talking to you. and now you keep making shit worst. first your not jade god ma. nikki is so stop saying she is. stop callen leah at work."

"you aint nobody fuck you. you need to worrie about your damn self its not my fault you dropped out of school and is dum as fuck go catch an std bitch."

"go be happy with stds and being know as the hoe of csu. how would sleep with you now and for your fyi you didn't ruin shit lololololol dont you feel stupid call leah hoe. lolololol"

"well i'm not dum considering i knew you would say something so i told her before you slut. bahahahahahahahaha go choke on some nuts. im glad your out of my life stank. go fuck yourself call her if you think i'm playing cant catch a pimp i thought you knew biotch."

"lose the number while you at it bye bye. hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha."

Whatever... Leah can call me if she wants because she knows I'm here for her. I think she deserves so much better. Yes, Lamar said hurtful things to me, but who he's hurting right now is Leah. I'm sorry I got into their business, I was just worried about a friend. She didn't even have a clue on what's going on. Well, I wish them all the best. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make it better for both of them. I'm sorry I couldn't be a Godmother to Jade. This breaks my heart, it really does.

Love Letter to Stephen #3

Dear My Only Love,

Hey, Honey ... I miss you. I'm just here thinking about you, like I always do. The thought of you in my arms right now sounds so good to me. I just want you to know how much I love you.

Ever since the first time I heard you on the phone and heard your cute voice, I miss you every second of my life. I knew I found someone special. I will always remember how sweet you are and how every time my phone rang and I heard your sweet voice I would smile and I was happy from that point on...

I know you’re birthday is coming up. I want to make it special for you. So if you have ANY requests at all, I’ll try and make them happen.

Attached is a recent picture that Molly and I took. I think she did a pretty good job.

Love always,

Amy

Things I'm working on right now from 101 list...

10. Cook at home 4x/week, lunch/dinner, for 3 months.

• I haven't gone out to eat in awhile, so this is a good thing.

11. Only eat poultry and seafood (no pork or beef)

• Haven't ate beef or pork at all. So far just chicken, turkey, and fish filets.

17. Organize clothes to half of what I have now, and donate the rest to Goodwill.

• I'm so glad I did this! My closet was a disaster!

20. Drink 4 Nalgene bottles filled with water every day.

• I've been bringing my Nalgene bottle with me everywhere, so it's been working out really good. I have to go pee a lot though.

29. Eliminate the habit of getting my nails done for 6 months.

• I need to stop getting my nails done... It's $45 dollars down the drain every month, and that money could go towards bills.

51. Identify 101 things that make me happy (5/101)

• So far I've identified 5, and still working on the list.

52. Read the last 2 Harry Potter Books

• Working on the 6th book, I need to read these two before the movie comes out!

64. Write a love letter to Stephen twice a week for 6 weeks. (2/12)

• I love my boyfriend :D

76. Write a poem 1x/week for 6 weeks. (1/6)

• Writing poems are kind of therapeutic for me.

90. Watch 5 movies a week for 6 weeks.

• 1st week - Jerry Mcguire, The Other Boleyn Girl, Dances With Wolves, Nancy Drew, The Pursuit of Happiness

91. Not go to the hookah bar for 3 months.

• This I really need to do... It's kind of money down the drain every time I go. But it doesn't mean I can't smoke at home, but then again I can't go to the hookah bar to buy stuff to smoke at home... so if I run out of stuff at home... then tough.

Yes, so these are the things I'm working on... I might even keep doing them after the 6 weeks or 3 months they've been accomplished.

Another Sad Day at Work...

One of my residents down my hall passed today. I will miss playing Bingo with him, and putting him to bed. He was another one of my favorites. May he rest in peace. I hate it when these things happen while I'm at work. It gets me so emotional. I haven't ate all day; just had one Mountain Dew and water. I'm just in a icky mood right now.

Love Letter #2 to Stephen

Hey Babe,

Thank you for the flowers last night. It means so much to me. It was a surprise, it really was. They’re beautiful. J

I love so much about you that it is hard to pick just a couple of things out. I love the way you laugh. I love the way you smile. I even love it when you make me mad and don't know why. I love how when you upset me, you try so hard to make it better. I am so in love with you that I don't go one minute without thinking of you and wishing that I was with you! I can't stand to be without you for one second. You have truly turned me into myself. Before you, nobody allowed me to be me. You have allowed me to open up my heart and trust again. You have allowed me to smile and be happy again. And for that I love you. I thank you and I will forever cherish our memories and I know there are many more to come.

I love you very much!

Amy

Poem #1

Wisps of hair flowing freely across her olive skin,
Her chocolate eyes pierce her suitor's grin.
Gently, just gently, she turns her head,
Revealing the marks of a greater dead.
His eyes wander to the two holes down her elongated flawless neck,
Oh,what a wild one he thinks, she must be from Quebec.
He starts to walk the other way, the wind shifting in his direction,
Ruining the girl's perfect complexion.

Things that make me happy...

1) Nature - Reminiscing in fresh air, hearing the trickling of the river or lake nearby... You just never want to close your eyes because of its beauty.

2) Stephen - My only love, who has my heart. He brought me flowers today - pretty red roses; my favorite.

3) Doing things from my heart that benefit others. It gets me very emotional that I can make a difference in someone's life.

4) My friends - You know who you are. Without you I would be lost somewhere...

5) Music... I don't know what I would do without it. I love to sing, and I still wish I could play violin and the piano.

My First Love Letter to Stephen

Hey Love,

I wish I didn't have to miss you. If only you could be with me always. I know I could never be any happier. But then again, I hope that the day will come when I will be able to spend my every waking moment with you. I even miss you when I am sleeping!

I know I’ve been impatient, sometimes I just need some attention. But I understand your job and your career and I support you all the way. Just know that I’ll always be here for you, no matter the situation. Remember, you’re always first on my list. I’ve even cancelled on my friends, a few times just to be with you.

I love you, babe. You are my only love, and I thank you for be so kind with my heart. Hopefully, soon I won't have to hate missing you.

Love Always,

Amy

Possibly a new beginning.

I am excited to have start 101 Things in 1001 days. These are realistic goals for me and I feel I can do them all in that period of time. I want to thank my bestfriend Mikah for introducing me to this, it's going to really help me get things done.

Well, Stephen and I have been together for 8 months. It's really good sometimes, and at other times, I just feel disappointment. He says he loves me, and he does, but I feel it's hard for him to show it then say it out loud. For our 6 month, I got him a very nice flask with his name engraved on it. He didn't get me anything, so I was like you know what, it's ok. My birthday rolled by and I didn't get a gift from him for my birthday. Then Christmas... I didn't get anything. And throughout our relationship, he's never given me flowers or anything... He's taken me out to dinner, and movies, but that's about it. Maybe I'm just being impatient. I don't know what to do. He hasn't texted me for a couple of days now. I mean, I'm going to lay low until he comes to me. I told him we needed to talk about us, but all he said was, "Ok." I don't know if he thinks the ring is a substitute for all my gifts this year, haha.

Oh well, we'll see what happens.

101 in 1001 Days

The Mission:

Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

The Criteria:

Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).

Why 1001 Days?

Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as New Year’s resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organizing and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

Start Date: January 1, 2009. End Date: September 29, 2011.

The Key:

Not Started
In Progress
Accomplished (with the date)

101 Things to Accomplish in 1001 Days

Education

1. Receive a B or better in all my classes Spring Semester.

2. Receive an Associate Degree in Early Childhood Education.

3. Continue my education to CSU for a Bachelor’s Degree in Early Childhood Education.

4. Read/highlight and take notes on ALL TEXTBOOKS this Spring Semester.

5. Try not to procrastinate, this Spring Semester.

Health, Mind, Body

6. Lose 90 pounds (0lbs/90lbs)

7. Exercise at the gym every day of the 1001 days (0/1001)

8. Do 50 push-ups and 50 sit-ups every other day for all of 1001 days.

9. Give up Fast Food (Chinese, McDonalds, Burger King, KFC, etc.)

10. Cook at home 4x/week, lunch/dinner, for 3 months.

11. Only eat poultry and seafood (no pork or beef)

12. One month without sweets/desserts.

13. Eat more vegetables.

14. Become a vegetarian for 1 week.

15. Measure the portions of food that I eat.

16. Go walking every morning with Riley (0/1001)

17. Organize clothes to half of what I have now, and donate the rest to Goodwill.

18. Take a nice long bubble bath twice a week.

19. De-stress myself by taking 30 min a day to meditate/relax.

20. Drink 4 Nalgene bottles filled with water every day.

21. Clear diet sodas only (no caramel color diet sodas)

22. Keep bedroom clean and organized for 3 months. (0/3)

23. Clean bedroom 1x/week for 3 months.

24. Keep desk in room clean for 3 months.

25. Clean desk in room 1/week for 3 months.

26. Knit a complete scarf.

27. Learn how to cross-stitch.

28. Give myself a pedicure twice a month for 6 months.

29. Eliminate the habit of getting my nails done for 6 months.

30. Get a massage 1x for every 2 months for a year.

31. Identify 5 bad habits and work on getting rid of them.

32. Identify 5 good habits and build from them.

33. Give Riley a bath 2x/month for a year.

34. Learn how to play Sodoku.

35. Go to therapy sessions.

Finances

36. Open up a Savings Account.

37. Save $10/week and put that into the Saving’s Account.

38. Fix my credit score.

39. Eliminate/Reduce credit card debt.

40. Make a budget plan for every month.

41. Don’t have a negative number in my account for 1001 days.

42. Begin Slumber Parties by Amy Vue again.

43. Sell all Slumber Parties Inventory – Have a HUGE SALE!

Purchases

44. Save up for a NIKON D3X

45. Save up for a new cell phone

46. Save up for a KINDLE

47. Save up for a KitchenAid

48. Save $ for a new windshield for my car.

49. Buy Front /Passenger Seat covers for my car.

50. When going to the mall, ONLY purchase necessary items for all of 1001 days.

Fun/Me

51. Identify 101 things that make me happy (5/101)

52. Read the last 2 Harry Potter Books

53. Go to a music concert.

54. Read 101 books (0/101)

55. Write in my journal for 1001 days (0/1001)

56. Keep my blog updated.

57. Subscribe to one of my favorite magazines.

58. Go try out as a band lead singer.

59. Join a band.

60. Go to Vegas.

61. Travel to NYC.

62. Have 1 dinner party once a month for 6 months with all my close friends.

63. Travel to Mexico.

64. Write a love letter to Stephen twice a week for 6 weeks. (2/12)

65. Go to Barnes and Noble and buy $100 worth of books.

66. Read all those books from Barnes and Noble.

67. Play tennis during the summer 3x/week for 3 weeks.

68. Write lyrics for 12 songs. (0/12)

69. Write and publish a love story.

70. Gather up the family and take Family Pictures.

71. Finish my HIGH SCHOOL scrapbook.

72. Start a new scrapbook.

73. Go visit a brewery with friends.

74. Buy myself flowers 1x/month for a year.

75. Learn how to line dance and go dancing.

76. Write a poem 1x/week for 6 weeks. (1/6)

77. Learn how to play the guitar.

78. Go camping during the summer with close friends.

79. Take another road trip to an unknown destination with friends.

80. Learn to be happy, and not assume/jump to conclusions.

81. Make an appt. with eye doctor.

82. Make an appt. with a Dentist.

83. Get wisdom teeth pulled out.

84. Go see the Doctor about my blood pressure and test for Diabetes and Cholesterol.

85. Go to a Gay Bar – hehe!

86. Learn how to cook 10 different meals from scratch! And they have to be meals I’ve never cooked before. (0/10)

87. Bake something from scratch every month.

88. Write down every dream that I had into my journal.

89. Bake a turkey by myself.

90. Watch 5 movies a week for 6 weeks.

91. Not go to the hookah bar for 3 months.

92. Go out to eat 1x/week for 6 weeks.

93. Try and go snowboarding.

94. Read “The Art of Happiness”

95. Record/Blog all the books that I’ve read.

Volunteer/Giving to Others

96. Donate blood.

97. Donate plasma.

98. Give everyone a handmade present for 1 Christmas.

99. Donate $1 dollar every time I make a purchase at Petsmart/Petco.

100. Fish out change for every homeless person I see.

Other

101. Make another 101 list for 1001 days after I’ve completed this list.